Why I Write in Public

Why do I feel the need to write or create? More. Why do I feel the need to do so in public? It’s funny. I don’t really expect anyone to actually read any of this. I need it to be in public, but I don’t think anyone will spend time truly looking at it. So why? For me, its because I’m scared. Working in public kinda terrifies me. Theres a sense of being exposed and judged while also feeling undeserving of the attention required to be judged in the first place.

The negativity IS the reason. They say in life and sales to get used to being told no. Just publishing my stuff feels like a similar inoculation. By putting my thoughts or art out here for anyone to see I get more comfortable with “no”. Even if the no is only coming from me. This is me practicing my imperfect. The writing will be shit for a while I’m sure. Maybe forever. Even if it doesn’t get better, I will.